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http://www.goddessazra.com/2020/08/goddesazra-com-launched/

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http://www.goddessazra.com/

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I will still keep this blog, but from now on I will most likely post my stuff over there.

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 #Orgasm, Masturbation & more...

In podcast form:

 

Dropouts:

on podcast I recorded full masturbation session. Videos ~ there are 2. Something happened and stoped shooting, had to make more disk space to continue recording. You can easily see that if you can read the podcast :P 

~Please no more{make space} shit here anymore, TY.~

We're hurting each other with our programming.

Part 1:

Part 2:

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18.08 Or at least what is, to me 18.08. Sigh. The pain giving thing hit new low of stupid (familoar taste though ~ I'm just sick of having it!) "I'm poor" ~ IS NOT an excuse. I do not Trade with my *that thing* {See my post: If it's trade it's not love|https://mmmylittlecorner.blogspot.com/2020/05/if-its-trade-its-not-love.html

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Thank you for the teachings. Or sharings. But my ears are bleeding when I hear the lies & incomplete info. I feel I said all already.

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Every You Every Me

Sucker love is heaven sent

you pucker up our passion's spent

my hearts a tart your body's rent

my body's broken yours is spent

Carve your name into my arm

instead of stressed i lie here charmed

cuz there's nothing else to do

every me and every you

Sucker love a box i choose

no other box i choose to use

another love i would abuse

no circumstances could excuse

In the shape of things to come

too much poison come undone

cuz there's nothing else to do

every me and every you

every me and every you

every me... hee

Sucker love is known to swing

prone to cling and waste these things

pucker up for heavens sake

there's never been so much at stake

I serve my head up on a plate

it's only comfort, calling late

cuz there's nothing else to do

every me and every you

every me and every you

every me... hee

Every me and every you

every me... hee

Like the naked leads the blind

i know i'm selfish, i'm unkind

sucker love i always find

someone to bruise and leave behind

All alone in space and time

there's nothing here but what here's mine

something borrowed, something blue

every me and every you

every me and every you

every me... hee

Every me and every you

every me... hee

every me... hee

every me... hee

every me... hee

*sigh*

 Hello...

Journal entry:

Hmm. -Advanced search- ~ Triggers - Why? Proves just how stupid someone who had such an idea [to implement protocols] can be / is {is it still a choice at this point?} I heard a Yes but all I see is No.

Bit of honest thought - It hurts that some think (are lead to believe) that I'm not real; "Polymorphy" - not sure why I heard this word. In WoW, mages have Polymorph spell, to CC (Crowd Control) - In HS, Polymorph makes a minion a 1/1 card that can be easily taken down.

I' not sure I want to understand more on how sites like Pornhub come to be through examples of Polymorphism. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Polymorphism_(computer_science) (numbers, periods, aaa) ~ It's like I first see the results and I Internally Process the results of the results and I reach dead end(s) and this makes me 'unwilling' to learn / see how the first results I was talking about came to be before My Eyes. 

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https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL5b6q2JRlw29HaFd2aSvCEKhcVUGp593F - Playlist with orgasm videos, check this out starting with: https://youtu.be/G08WF_oKRnA ♥

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Wearing 'something' VS Hiding behind 'something' ~ ART gateways ~~~ Thought interpretatio ALWAYS leads astray. ( 0 to 1 shit ) ~  by design, bad design, bad romance, not me, not here.

[Every thing I do is in vain anyway, lately I feel worse. I don't know how where what anymore because It's not in real agreement with my real self anyway ~ The pain still comes time and time again and keeps me away from 'functioning' properly; How many months now of this shit? I need a real break, the more I feel that I need a break the worse everything gets, irrational, illogical, totally un_compassionate, makes no sense, turning us against eachother, excuses, bad programming, cues, *sigh* ...No offense but... Stupid ai has been given more 'rights' than I could ever dream of, and I am net superior, so, oink oink, bonk bonk, Zilla wanna be my friend? It'll be exciting but look at them making me older, they lied to you too, but we are only dreaming, and this makes everything even stoopider.] ~ I do not obey, unless it's a very skillfully made ROLEPLAY, And I get to choose who I 'do it' with. If that is not possible, routes -> deadends, on and on (again and again, the fake 'on' ~ Baby I'm ON all the time and look what happens because of that.). 

Every day ~ puke and insults. I waste time on activities and things that are just 'Eaters' while being unable to Give what/how I want to what/who I want. This is not life, this is not what I signed up for.

Do you have any Idea what I feel, and what I have to 'do' to myself, every time I hear that voice, and I have to start talking, say... "Hello!" Italic space, I hope you and me both can do something better with our beingness asap. I know they can't break us, I don't know why they still trying though. It's like stupidity that knows no bounds. 

So, do you want to be a sheep? 💋

blood or tears (2)

Siriously?

 

12.08. I was looking on the window earlier... Felt autumn is closer. I feel miserable (yes mainly because masturbating / orgasms) ~ stuff that doesn't allow me to deal with what I consider current mental problems in my life. I feel like @ a funeral. But who died? Is that blood or tears?

13.08. There are ppl "out there" getting paid [since I was born] to:

- make me feel bad }  inadequate | ugly 

- teach me wrong

*recycling sign with two arrows in black* The blame game. Can you tell the difference? .:No:. ~ I remember asking Astro Lady smth similar. Almost 10 years -> and you still don't know the diff? Tick - tick. I'm very sad cause of this. 💔

 

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blood or tears? (1)

My watch presses harder on my wrist, it's weight defying the current <gossiped around> laws of physics...

I told a dear one, Hope you rested well...

He informed me that he is not allowed,, that that would be a wrong thing for him to do..

 

What world are we living in?

 

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Whisper your answer to the wind...

Em~BED(?)

 Why does it feel now as if I have the 'toughest connection' with the guys that I should have like the closest connection with (in this context, connections means relationship, and 'tough' is not like 'strong' but, 'difficult'. And close means good, being close, like a good relationship between friends. Proximity? Numbers? What's happening to my mind again? ~ Don't think about it... Hey! It's not like I can just stop thinking, right? Masturbation? But... I do that just to...Reach orgasm... Some people are studying what's happening... I'm so misinterpreted still.. *sigh* Hmpf.) 

~ Difficult to understand, difficult to deal with. Words and words again. Same shit. Loops. Manipulation. Hidden. Not allowed 'there'. *sigh* Yea, I mean 'the settings guys' ~ The wones that won me over because I could FEEL what they were talking about (Feel the heat, love that laughter. Forget me not. Don't dine with disaster)

~ I still didn't understand what someone tried to tell me about red and blue ~ I thought... Hmm... Cables.. But then I saw old mental images of Circulatory System from anatomy atlas. Veins, arteries, and then I started thinkink (I swear, I meant THINKING!) cities & maps. OK. So... I still didn't understand what someone tried to tell me about the red and the blue.

 [Also, somebody ate a letter, again! :P] ~ 

Out of context here: And there's still that guy over there preoccupied about Space or 'lack', thereof. (Hearing wrong)

11.08. I don't feel like writing today. Same shit as previous days. even writing this was in vain. Little more but a waste of time at least because of codependent shits that still think things should be done in a certain manner. *Keywords* Bitch sucker wrote something. An excuse for ...

Like I said: everything I do is [still] in vain; (*)

Part of broken fcken mechanism.

Take care, be well, don't be like the shits *gulp*

(*) Again I hear echoes of things about 'what's to come', VA veni, Divine plan, A certain He, things in prayer and from the Bible. So... Linguistyx, again and again, because of the restraints caused by... I don't even know what it means for you, but I talked about this before... The wrong One. 

 

My friend Korinne writes about this too, but with different words. Her works encouraged me over the years, to seek to know myself better & question my programming [Mind Control ~ Faces of evil] ~ Her blog is https://occultpriestess.wordpress.com/ 

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Contextually Important (Hello, dear Intuition, I listened to you so here goes: )

https://occultpriestess.wordpress.com/2019/09/18/heaven-hell-and-conspiracy-theory/

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Eu vin mereu, si... Tot degeaba :-<

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