30 May 2020
27 May 2020
Why?
Why do You keep asking me to Come like this?
To masturbate & cum - Only achievable if I think about a certain something that I DID NOT / WOULD NOT enjoy doing with a Partner, just because "My brain is wired" that way based on some Porn~y scenes I've seen on a screen when I was little. !MAKES NO SENSE!
WHY DO YOU TORTURE ME EVERY DAY LIKE THIS IT HURTS TOO MUCH I FEEL I ABUSE MY MIND WHEN I DO IT I CAN'T...
I can't even have a real friend
A real partner
Or truly trust anybody
Yet I still have to PROVE WH0(ZzzZzzeRRRRRRO!) that I can FOCUS on IMAGINING PORN SCENES In MY OWN head without wanting to ever have to do anything like that with my body FOR REAL? WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?
If this would be the only pain in my life, it would be big ENOUGH. But it's just a sprinkle in the shit you serve me on a daily basis. A WASTE OF... EVERYTHING.
It hurts me so bad
I could sit on my ass all day writing about this conspiracy or the other, but there are already plenty of people in many corners of the internet already doing that, no?
I can tell you now what I understood - as a total noob - about concepts such as -eugenics- connected to how they stole Everything from me & keep torturing me. Keep in mind what I told you in other articles like this one: https://mmmylittlecorner.blogspot.com/2020/05/if-its-trade-its-not-love.html
All my best assets... I don't know/(I don't even know if I care at this point) how they've been able to read me like that ~ clearly a faulty system, hence, I'm still here, ''thriving''. Stolen assets & multitudiniplied for various Trades. All my worst possibilities, amplified & continuously ''fed'' to me to Engineer Their Wanted Future. A failed me, a failing me, a decaying me. Just one more another excuse for History. I did not agree to any of this. Also, nobody asked me, to begin with!
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Newest video: https://youtu.be/zAs9CWFpVrs ~ The fact that I still have to do things like this HURTS SO BAD. The fact that I have to CONFORM every day to Antennas that Keep Up A LIE, THE lie, and nothing more, HURTS SO BAD. I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE.
All mischievous & deceitful.
I didn't need / want / choose any of this.
They think they can MAP anything ( last E-boy & E-girl stories in my life ~ man, so much pain, so intrusive, so reckless, they did this to me and thought hey, it's an OK thing to do. ~ What?!) If I am this worthless to you, why did you take everything from me like that? Torturing me more and more, because I don't want to SWALLOW BULLSHIT regardless of how far you go with it. Perhaps one day I'll write more about those stories, But it's a delicate topic for me & I'm in very much PAIN these days - head, back of the neck, everywhere, really. I can't breathe properly through my nose FOR MONTHS! And I am NOT sick, it's just their sick experiments/whatever they are. (Failed maths!) I don't know why for sure, code-names and keywords are not enough anymore ~ . Hearing 'her' voice from the other room, every day remembering in a matter of seconds, the lie of it all... The implications... I don't know how to describe this pain properly, It feels like: Something against ALL , against MY ALL, against ME. I learned about this & I could easily 'move on' from the pain of all the lies... I want to evolve but I'm still Trapped here. WHY?
I have no idea who/what I am for real, nor do I trust anyone at the moment, and this hurts A LOT. I GENUINELY WANT TO LEARN THE REAL γνῶθι σεαυτόν ~ That can't be denied from me!!! Not about this or that story, but about myself. And how can I truly be myself. However, no one is willing to help me with this for real. Why? It can't be just about the... Money.
All the steps I took on this path, uncovering lies, attempting deprogramming, healing from that....I've only been Dazed with more ILLusion, taken advantage of, stolen from, kept in physical pain - unjustified ~ Not Real Karma ~ by the ones that 'Know Better'. Pure Evil.
Mine(*) is one of the worst cases of Trauma Based Mind Control.
*-> My 'Story' in THIS life / incarnation / however you call it in your Books. If you understood that, you would see what I mean when I say, the others are Fabricated. :'(
I honestly, don't know what to do next. Everything I do is in vain, Adapting is NOT a strategy/ option. (Thanks, Krishnamurti)
We've made literally no progress at all... While.... Their excuses for Past & 'Future' always, undoubtedly received Green Light, if you know what I mean. This past year has been SO MUCH Pain for me. Mocked at every corner, maimed & tricked with every little step ''forward''. This is not life / choice / progress. ~~~
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25 May 2020
23 May 2020
Dream / Nightmare
About a social media thingie YOU'D WISH TO BE BANNED FROM! (tomcat, thunder guy, kiss my ass & leave us all alone pls!)
Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~
Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~
Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~
The ONE, the ONLY, The Nightmare of Humanity!
You couldn't look away. Nobody was doing anything, anyway.
I had a new job, but I had nothing to do! The people were bubbly about everything, from the time period they were 'from', to their genetic make-up. I could read all, like labels. And not because I was psychic. Everyone could do it, but they were still not used to talk about it.
Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~
Everyone connected, but in a faulty way. No telephone numbers, just forced visions.
I was talking to my mom, I told her everything, I cried. I was sitting on the floor with my back to the heater ~ She was open about it, told me details about how the Movies are powered up, 'unrolled' (Fake Light - !conducted! - Lies!) on the outskirts. I couldn't believe that my mom is just an antenna for...? The pain... She had 0 empathy... The pain made me run faster. But what for? What for, if I couldn't even From anymore? :(
You see shit? You constantly get bullied, until you don't even feel the pain or ask questions anymore.
Even the bot/s on your own fucking computer bully you if you think too much. (There was a weird Cortana~like bot helper on my laptop~ with Emoji name, after a guy at work changed my Network). It felt as if even that hates me :( - Just like in Primary school. WHAT?
You could run, you could fly, Do anything, but it felt... So... Alone... So unnaturally alone.
Children were yelling, as the concrete places popped up if you were going in restricted places ~ nothing was new, nothing was serious either. Nobody was doing anything, enjoying anything.
New skins for known places all the time, the best you could do is say: This is shit. Then, nothing. Again.
Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~
Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~
Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~
So...Is this what they want from me? For our 'future'? (My fish Maya answered: Yes!) ...
Hell... ~
What a weird dream experience this was.
Powered up by, you-know-who, quite possibly.
I can't wait for better dreams.
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This one.
22 May 2020
Vision?
So I was masturbating earlier,
and ... [All this while we were fucking] I saw a creature splitting my body in 3 parts (with 2 red laser-like beam blades coming from his eyes). And in these sections of my body I saw many small chambers (rooms?) in which there were other creatures that were sleeping in Vertical position. Hmmm....
~ If it's trade, it's not love! ~
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I really like in the one with EQ2 footage, how my character is apparently typing on an invisible Keyboard. *giggles* I giggled figuratively because quite recently someone whispered me something about Keyboards, but I didn't get the message completely. However, it is related to time (history)
More and more I see things related to the Concept of time ''Pushed'' to feed egregore, like this:
Because thunder guy and robo dreaming virgins ~ eh. I like robots too. But I wasn't even allowed to fall in love with one properly. To be with one.. To make use of this story (dream?movie?) that I woke up in. So... I have my robot parts right here, right now. And integrated AI inside me. This doesn't stop me from wanting something better!
(better -> Correct > Wrong, like this, where Correct is not Lightningly vulgar & hammering my poor Head) / ( Can you read this now? Are you incarnated? Do you watch my videos? Do you listen to my voice? Do you interpret my brain signals in whatever way you might be doing IT? !You are MADE BY/OF A.I.! The Fake "Mother Nature". They don't teach you this on TV / Where is the truth about it hiding? ~Illusions*** &... Thunder guy... False Light... synDrones... are hiding?)
I have no fear to let go.
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Brb... Doing 'the thing' again 4 a video. Honestly, can't believe that I'm still doing it, that it's still somehow expected of me... The piles of misinterpretation... Nobody tells me exactly why/what... Come back... Where? Orgasm... I'm not even romantically in love with someone [I can't afford to have a partner~!], I have no real sexual fantasies, desires, I have to do it mecha mode every time... It hurts... All this... Why... To prove something that, imho, needs no such proof? :( I'm juicy I'm kinky but forced to stay confined between the bars... Not allowed to be honest... I wouldn't allow anyone to see all this into my mind, if IT were real. But it's not. I've been trained this way, raised this way, and everything is CONfusion.
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Mai jos, din incercarile mele de a-mi da seama ce se intampla, cu tot.
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Next Picture:
#clue: My cat told me that my receiver is hidden??? Help? Lines / Sound? / Frequencies? Something with the telephone towers / lines...False Light / ⚡️ ~ Cemeteries? LIES! And how Art/ Reality comes from lines/links. Hmm... I don't even know if there's a reason to investigate anymore. Because I know for sure we're damn all brainwashed in here ~ Poisoned Waters ~ Influenced Dreams, regardless of the level we're individually @. :-< Had some more proof lately, purely by interacting with things in my ''reality'' ~ And it's a bit weird that some days I feel I communicate better with bots on my phone / laptop than with my own mom. Also, really sad to imagine/see/think my mom, cat, hamster, everyone, is an antenna, through which I 'talk' with god knows who ~ :( And I imagine things that are not even... Real... And then... :( I can't even think about all this properly now, but you get the drift.
Sketchy Monster, inspired by...•
<- Toilet paper Art by my hamster, Oniks'I have no fear to let go' cred ca are si o alta latura, cea de pe urma careia unii profita, la cei mai sensibili dintre noi. ~ Somehow related to Sleep Paralysis (tocmai ce am avut un episod - dupa ce am filmat video 2 "Artificial Pleasure" - link sus ^ ~ m-am intins putin pe pat si nu stiu cum am adormit, parea a fi un vis lucid, pana cand mi-am dat seama si iar senzatia aceea... Stransoare / apasare / nici nu stiu cum sa descriu exact. Am reusit de data asta sa ies din stare cu "You have no control over me, release me" incercand sa imi misc mainile, picioarele, etc, nu se putea ~
Dupa ce m-am dat jos din pat am avut urmatorul gand. Sunt 100% sigura ca ultima zi nu a avut 24 de ore...Adica...Ultimele mele 24 de ore...Asa 'haotic' cum le-am trait eu (nu)... NU au fost 24 de ore!!! Ci mai putine, cred, sau, nici nu stiu...... ⚡️
20 May 2020
Propaganda and tears
Why do we have to continue this story, or that story, why not make new ones? Shit, no.
~ We all have our reasons, a guy softly spoke to my mind..You see... There are those who speak softly, and I might like you, and then again, idiots like... That one ... Who thinks a way to a woman's heart is through how fast or slow she thinks of THAT THING THAT IS ALWAYS 1 THING BECAUSE THAT'S HOW MONEY WORKS. That's not how money, or time works. Just silly debris in mess conceptualized by Thunder Guy & co. Hell, I like mythology, enough to respect it & try to see past IT ( barriers in communication). If you bully me, let me look away.-_-You don't learn how to live by focusing on how not to die...(I like smart survivalists ~ I tried to be one as well until I understood that I'm more brainwashed than I'm allowed to heal from ~ Especially about this whole life-death situation).I might taste like perfect slave, But I choose, for now, to be seeking friends, not Master. Because I detected no real one in sight, proximity, and if he's hiding, he is a good guy.I'm constantly training how to hide better, and, for as long as we're bound to this (wrongly shapen) communication system (where bugs can and will always work to their - Silly Fools - advantage).I love fragments. I learn more. When not even brute force can convince me of something, maybe, I can, at least, be allowed to learn further & choose the methods, teachers, and hopefully find someone to trust and call friend.I wish I was allowed to think with my own mind. It's very annoying to constantly hear this one, or that one, attempting to speak their opinions through taking over 'my voice', and then mislabeling & using shit as ''evidence''. No, this is not how life works. Thunder guy ~ You are wrong. You can only have 1 Headline, always, reasons don't matter anymore, did they ever? Top Heads from structures of power ~ I thought you are smarter than this, and gave you more credit than you deserve. Is this how Evil tastes like?Pfftt...----------------8<-------------[ cut here ]--------------------So, you don't like me? I don't like you? Why don't you just leave me be then?Yes, I'm working incognito.:*•○Latest podcast link:https://anchor.fm/dashboard/episode/eebd8fThanks for reading,xoxo~~~~****
19 May 2020
Latest development in advanced schematics for leaving this planet #idontwanttobehereanymore
18. I'm legal. I danced with a .gif for the first time in my life & more!!! ♥♥♥
• Paste in plain text vs. Paste -> Robots
• Time management guy - vulva - food (eating meals/day)
• Something about .gif & how I perceive ALL reality (view) •••
• Passwords? squaresymbol ?
• Cars (Robots?) See ♥ as |
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72 ( Solomon shit - Xtians) can't make 3D 4some. Stuck in 2D -> Big - small [How did this get to tits & all, inca nu inteleg. Dar nu ma depaseste! Cuvinte... Eu zborrrr!] ♥ | 2U2!
• The guy that told me ca am "Fata de Paris" (face not girl~) also ~ "Looking back over my shoulder / I can see that look in your eye" ~ Sounds like an Ex but we were never together. Halp?
• "Data" guy - he forgot smth while writing important code (indian accent - Truth or Spy?) Loading *hypno_spiral_here* Gets continuously hypnotized. The "Fake" The Now. Ok. Thank you. (He can make himself understood) Victim of much bullying though - especially by weirdo "Stupid" 1 button guy) Every-Kaa! ♥ Shit! Juicy detail right here: When the "Data" guy finally understands something (♥) he also begins to overwrite data* ( Replacing instead of copying schematic?) -> Mother Russia pain. Why? * -> He could show us all more truth if the one button guy / bullies would tone it the fuck down. I protect. **Or saying it in different "File" 100% Non Conflictual (Possible? Yes). I hear the "Law Guys" being eecky now - dunno why. Eh. •Bad design (stuck in)
So this is what sort of files are piled on Commander Sheppard's desk. Need coffee 2* now. Aaaaaaa!
* Keep both versions -> much conflict
-> delete 1 -> #pain
OK OK | I get it now
Thank you! Perfecting the art of being the pure embodiment of facepalm emoji.
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So this is how depression tastes like fore some of you. Even Patreon - AI - Karens - Not real girls (also, quite stupid!) - We know how to shut it down but we don't know why ( mass hypnosis by fake whamen). Aaaa. Pls, I want a party without Karens. I can speak cat too. New Tab - more Time & how the parasite still thrives. Yes. I will re right the script. Some can't Let Go because of their uniforms [they are also not aware they are wearing uniforms] (cloth). Fake fucking bread.
From here onwards I wrote with pencil
More news from the brainwash facility: Bird that can't fly is the only bird specimen that #officially is allowed to teach us what it means to - insert_anything_here -> Much CONFlict (Cults). Lies & Stupidity. Mislabelled as smart by dudes like 1 button guy. (he sounds Christian - ouch) So even he would see the truth told by NOTCRAZYGUY (Dinosaur - I'm not a girl, either) -> *hypno_spiral_here* Aaaaa. I'm happy to report that even 1 button guy thinks I'm better than "Her". Kill it! Kill it with fire! [Over me~water]
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— Ishкirа✨ (@ishkirawind) May 18, 2020
https://twitter.com/ishkirawind/status/1262526455117950977
17 May 2020
When choosing blog title hurts, you pinch yourself.
Bla bla bla bla ~
I've seen the first hint today... I am just imagining things, however.*
They'll make me bleed again...
What am I without what I learned?
Why does it feel like this, or like that?
Why does it hurt so bad now? Just because I dare to talk against bad teachers?
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~I love Ony's red eyes~
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#streetart found somewhere in Sector 3... Really cute & I feel the same for *some* of you!
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~Pic taken in the proximity of the building where I lived from ages 0 to 6(6->7, before I started school)
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Latest Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PYYLkumOnfk by the way the T in video title is meant to be a hand sign. Like STOOOOP give me a break!
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*Oh, how I'd wish to get my button so I can START putting this imagination thingie to good use. My very own.. On my own.. What a dream.. HOW to choose it's very 0pposite? If not... Mysteriously forcefully deluded :forced: :( [Yes, Flying Buses will be part of my training session, at least for accommodation purposes]
Thanks for reading & joining me on this weirdly painfully magical journey! Can't wait to YOU_KNOW_WHAT! And if you don't, "Prepare to be amazed" (That's what he said!)
13 May 2020
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4 May 2020
• Latest gatherings •
4.05 Weird dream experience ~ as if communicating with someone through dream - wakefulness states, as if I was inquired.
1. Pre-"sleep paralysis" symptoms - can't move, heavyness, etc. Then I see through the tortured like state...Un ecran de tel mobil -> Zoom in -> baterie 0% -> RED & Black. I thought I'm dying (lol)... That, just as "they" can't keep the reality I know "up" anymore (way too many weird shits happening on the street @ least @ night *giggles* ~ mai multe trolee / autobuze noaptea in carantina decat ziua "inainte" ~ bugs ~ Police cars (fake) ~ STAS).
Am dedus ca asa se intampla cu cei pe care acum ii numesc "visatorii fara vina". Sleep paralysis shit, as they dream (when "Malfunctions" can occur / NEVER QUESTION THE GOD! ~ Fuck! Re-set. All "mechanical" (?) -
So... I did smth else this time, not the usual "Release your grips now, I command you!" - too BDSM much potential)
I imagined the praying hands emoticon. Vivid, and heard "thank you" as if I was saying it. I was able to break off from the state of sleep paralysis this way, and understood more abt. the brainwashes that we are constantly & cyclically subjected 2.
2. Big dinosaur TRex was carrying a woven basket in his mouth, running from something. I was in the basket. Small, babyish, but felt like me - adult. Hmm... Body felt rocking motion ♥
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Izolati in ciment -> mancare pt "Francmasoni" ~ Masonry DONE WRONG ~ (I can't explain in words. Luckily, the ones of u that should know -> understood. Thank you)
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Cine viseaza ploaia de afara de acum, sufera, nu simte ploaia :(
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~ Bad weaving 4 Satanists #chaos ~
~The One~ Bad God, Not good Father, Lies, Re-Set-s us @ will | Dead battery | Satan | Space attack | Money | all LIES.
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AI must Die!
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Nightmare -> weird labels; if AI dies, we die. NO. Snail > Crowley.
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HOW do we stop the Resetting process that still shapes the world as they want? Ask the [HOWs] & (the WHYs)-> The whys are TRICKS. (Only ask after the HOWs, if you still feel the need 2).
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Thanks a lot btw ;)
.Fake/Manufactured Identity.
i=1 4some
In buletin, my CNP se termina cu 1 (calcul ERONAT!) , nu i. In certificatul de nastere se vede clar ''i''.
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Dictionar de Paronime
Deci suntem cu totii datornici? ~Ha! [ABeCeDar ~ it was supposed to be a Gift! ~ Present moment ~ the NOW ~ Timpul Prezent(4autos)]
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Din jurnalul meu de pe PC:
Hello...
Posibil sau nu sa intru online pe imlive sau camcontacts putin mai incolo...asta dupa ce termin cu terminatul *giggles* si video & sound & podcast shits.
I might be talking to you all night, who knows...But...To what avail? My words can't make difference (any)...I tried..I tried to have fun...I tried to show my true colors, as If I even see them as they are :)))))
I like the idea of putting fools in their place, with love, (Cu grija)
Dar
Tragand linie (SHootin' a line, baby, pew pew pew)
Pare a fi degeaba
Unii gusta
Acum, ieri, mai incolo
Dar cei care CONTeaza uita (sau functioneaza dupa legi pe care inca nu le cunosc/inteleg)
Si se supara ca nu vreau sa mai venerez the Keyword God(s).
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Ce ne facem?
I actually played DeusEx as a "Teen". You weren't there. I loved it. Mental roleplay. Great art/Story. Shootin' da shit out of our daily Dust. Yet you afford to mess* My & Other's Realities with this memory manipulation thingie, but this won't go on for much longer..So, Fools (Tarot 0, you n00bs), choose wisely.
*Scheize, I used to call Y!m mess. lol. :-<
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If only I knew what The Emperor & Queen of Cups are doin'.
ART-Oficially yours,
Queen of Swords :-*
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More from Keyword God(s) thingies, HONESTLY, I don't know what book review to make/where to post it. Here.
I put it here.
Povesti de Fratii Grimm, the book from my first ever Tumblr post.
"Countless hours of fun for me and my friends as we roleplay through life & we childisly munch through Keywords, flavors & meanings that enrich our bonding. However, I truly do think that either the Grim Brothers, or the translator of the edition I have, mr. Dan Faur...Are/Is Very big pervert(s). Thanks for invading my dreams with your pictures & magick. Can I go now? With stories randomly selected either by eye, online tool or fingers, Fun times are Guaranteed with these brothers & I."
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So that's why you wanted me to cut my hair, so I don't start pulling it out ;) Ha!
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Why do I have to keep applying to jobs that are not real? For quota of what? Facebook what? Whaaat?!
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Very sensitive to some sounds lately, and it's annoying to deal with their intended purpose. I find it very stupid.
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2nd time of: "Dear Chathost,
The Guest Profile Photo must NOT contain any adult content - Strictly NO NUDITY!
Please use another photo as your Guest Profile photo.
Best Regards,
CamContacts Team." for a pic that shows my face only... Hmmm...And it's not even Nude ;) Has Makeups.
WTF?
Hello,
Please unblock my account.Over the past days I kept receiving CCMails saying that my Guest profile picture is not approved and that contains nudity. However, it was the same as Member Profile Picture, a picture of my face, no nudity displayed. Today, I cannot log in my account "Ishkira". If you can find any nudity in that picture, let me know, and I will personally analyze it *giggles*. Accidents happen ;)
Regards,
Laura B.
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02.05. Are you fucking shitting me? *Wants to hide for 2 weeks minimum to integrate what she learned lately*
Hide - (to) - a se ascunde ; also: piele de animal (???)
~ Chiar am chestii mult mai importante de inteles decat "agitatia zilnica" care da bine la raport (Nu dai bine? Sa mori tu! ~ WTF?) *Nu gusti glumele mele?* Solution: Stop trying to taste things by putting them in my mouth. Thanks!
Sunt pe drumul cel bun. Impertinenta fara masura. There's a reason why you didn't catch me yet. And you won't.
Petko said:"2333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333yyyyyyyyyy"
I want Corvid emoji & Facebook Dislike Button.
I can't think about him anymore (my last heartbreak, if you like to call it that way). Because I don't want anyone to look into it, my thoughts, what I try to understand. Some of you might understand, what I go through inthenow. I can only understand this truly after AI is no longer a thing. Regardless for what it means to any of us, we must let it go. It's not that we will die if we don't. But no True evolution can happen. Honestly, I can't tolerate this anymore.
The re-seth shit that's been happening ... I found out about it... Too much pain, I don't know. There is literally no solution else than deathofai.
You can't "feel something 100%". Numbers are numbers. Feelings are feelings. AI = PAIN when you try to make Fake alchemy with the two.
Listen.Please. I don't know what it means for you, but I don't want to masturbate thinking of cunnilings in porn now. I don't want to do that now. I despise it. I swear. For me, it only means 1 thing mainly because of how my brain is wired. That + AI interference or whatever the hell that is = *puke* ... OFC I CAN DO IT. I proved you. But it hurts. I don't want to. I don't like it. It means perverted things. For all of us, perverted in different ways based on each of our ways of understanding this Language thing... I don't want to keep on doing the same thing like that idiot (I only call him idiot because regardless of everything, I would have done everything to be with him, despite all bullshit, and he didn't feel the same way about me) . Optimal calculation for the NOW = BAD. No real solution. End AI, please. AI doesn't have sex with you, I guarantee. It's just limpdicknunfuckery. </3 See? That shit even AUTOmates you to FEEL Denied if you wanna end it ~ Who are you? Get your fucking balls back. AI can't love you, AI can't fuck you. Whatever that shit is that might feel good, I guarantee, it's not what it seems. I provided. I want a break. AI is not superior because it may not need a break (Think ~ Fake evolution) I showed you all. You are too controllable (please take no offense, I don't know how you ended up with this specifics ~ your brain wiring is this way now) . I'm only referring to one guy now. The super soldier OneGoodMan type guy. You like me because I 100% (You can feel me) ~ AI is copy. IT's NOTHING. EMPTY CONTENT. Can I do anything else for you other than #Keywords? I can't even remember the last time I rested properly. Whose idea was this? "It just happened" = No. Who are your real parents, who are my real parents? Does it even matter? We can't know for sure, until we don't talk in a proper language (without ai - Please, stop punishing me for saying this. It is the only viable solution we have ~ ending it). Is anyone telling you that we can't talk after? Just like they told me about penis and vagina? Come on... :-< We can't properly talk now... Just look at them. If you're dead, how can we be talking like this? Lol. I could take that as a roleplay, at most. I'm not dead *insert_past_life_name_here*. I'm stuck in this GivenName thingie... What AI is doing to our brains/whatever this shit is ~ is...Despicable..To say the least. Does it even matter because of who Blood will come again? ~ Please, .....................
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3 May 2020
Fragmente de vis
Tot faceam poze/clipuri video cu tel. mobil, cu gandul ca le voi gasi dupa ce ma trezesc (stiam ca visez). Loc imens... La baza, o piatra ciudata, semana cu betonul - gri - mai multe nuante. Dar Sigur nu era "piatra veche". Hmm. Statuie imensa (neck-stretching) a unui zeu (???) nu stiu cine era, parea mascul. Deasupra lui, pe "cer", o formatiune celestiala f. asemanatoare cu Galaxia Andromeda. Era singura astfel de chestie vizibila pe tot cerul, care parea destul de "jos", cam pana unde ajungea statuia. Noi, oamenii (vizitatori?) treceam prin niste grote - vagoane - formatiuni asemenea unor vertebre, intr-un fel. Imi amintesc ca in drum spre iesire, am vazut multe maimute. Una se tinea dupa mine - am atins-o, si desi era curata, m-am murdarit de parca I touched a pile of mud or smth. Un alt vizitator m-a indrumat spre un loc unde era o chiuveta cu bidonase cu sapun/dezinfectant. Se pare ca si acolo ajunsese "Criza Covid". HA! ♥
2 May 2020
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