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Latest podcast: Citesc din Filozofia Hermetica

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I was playing a game today on my phone and I saw it had a feature to record footage, ok,

Fooled around for a bit, here is the result: Playing Deep Town

Making a list of all the games I have on my phone right now, not sure why, maybe to check it after a while and giggle. I like trying out new games with various art styles. I don't play them to 'kill time' or because I'm bored, something indescribable perhaps. I always had an interesting relationship with games and never really understood why. 

One of the things I'm grateful for this year, that is slowly approaching it's end (LOL), was how I felt I was interacting differently with some things in the games I play(ed), even if, that didn't really lead anywhere, it was something more than just enjoyment for me. Not sure why. If all this was just for...masturbation/keywords suggestions, then... *sigh*... Only strengthening what I kept on saying for the past... Umm... Well... PAST? :O 

♥

Iron Saga 

Cut the Rope

I Love Hue

I Love Hue Too

Final Fantasy Record Keeper

Merge Dragons!

A Girl Adrift

Bistro Heroes

MyMuseum

Terrarium

Om Nom: Merge

Starry Garden

Alphabear 2

Bushido Bear

Pou

Monster Chef

HaywireHospital

My Music Tower

Kawaii Kitchen

HappyHop

Monkey Roll

Sailor Cats

Symmetry 

Fluffy! Cute Character Lunchbox

Dessert Shop ROSE Bakery

animal restaurant

Mama Hawk

Deep Town

Sandship

~~~

 

Much love,

Laura.

pwwoi

 

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If you don't stop, I'll kill you!

4 orgasms ~ Part I and Part II - 2 orgasms each ~ #GoddessAzra #whatevering:

https://youtu.be/HuLGWAXTQbg

~

https://youtu.be/h87Jf98E2OQ

I'm so tired of all.

Every day is a waste of everything.

What was life supposed to be?

*Nobody talks*

And if the one I want to see can't be seen with my eyes - why TF do I have eyes for? [Me] 

30.12.20 00.39

Had 4 orgasms made 20tkns. That's not the problem. The problem is the same as ever. A mountain of lies that looks like thrash. [in our heads]. No love. Borrowed flavors. But from who? I want to choose. I want to choose. What's happening now, on most if not all lvls. Is so wrong. No love. No comfort. My head is not room for whatever T&C has access to because X & S or whatever. That's not a choice. Will. Intent. Energy. So miscalculated. I want to die but death doesn't come for me. I have literally nothing to live 4. My life is a nightmare. Surrounded by Godless. 

I don't care that they give me pain. Choice? No. Nobody 2 love. Doing nothing all daylooking at my fish is a better life than all this shit. I want to "see them dead" = never again hear from ??? Liars.

Doing that to my mind (thoughts!) is not Anal play. FFS. It's our world. Not yours. Who made this possible? It's schemed. Stupid too. Zero. Not making anything. I've outgrown those who gave me no choice. Pls don't tell me that T so u have to continue to do this to me. Please. They T[ed] me too and at best, I was ashamed of myself. Never use that as excuse. I saw as 0. Nothing.

I know we need not wait 4 betterment. Zbang & Smth instant.

-wrong type of red as usual. Red=life not the nonsense I'm served [given without real choice].

I'm pissed because how we do things now is v unhealthy :P

*Nobody talks*

*Nobody talks*

*Nobody talks*

Daca traiesti pentru altii, n-o sa traiesti niciodata pentru tine {Sa stii cu adevarat insemnatatea acestor cuvinte}

Daca nu traiesti pentru tine ~ nu vei fi niciodata cu mine.

Abia apoi poti invata

Sa traiesti cu

Sa traiesti prin

Si alte chestii interesante

Mie, cel putin 

{Si daca ar fi sa te aleg, logic ca si tie}

.

Nu imi mai explica ce auzi, te rog

M

F 

M

FMM era o injuratura in liceu 

♥

Eu sunt eu

.

lalala

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I know how to waste time way better than what I'm told to do to waste time.

I can't continue like this anymore.

*wink*

Pretty tail

Playing with me

Look at me!

I know it ♥

I'm still bothered on a daily basis by

nonsense

Not nonsense that could potentially lead somewhere because

wind

but

just

plain

nonsense

When I look at what I can see

All I feel like doing

is 

Nothing

Nothing, where are you?

Get over here, I want to do you some more.

You're probably the only friend I ever have

ROFL

Why the fuck do I still bother.

I don't know.

Oh, I don't like these words.

If G was right we wouldn't be doing this shit now like this.

"The way"

"The one"

All my life.... Was puke of bad food at best.

Thanks for making it smell nice though but...

You wasted my time....

And I wasted yours..

*sigh*

& 

*wink*

💋

Question

 Is there anything left between the lies you tell me and the lies you like to hear? :)

Din iunie si pana acum

Nici macar o pauza nenorocita {Nu, nu numai de atunci, dar am devenit nostalgica recitind niste tweeturi}

Dar ploua cu pretentii

Non stop

Oriunde ma uit.

Asta e viata mea?

De-asta m-am nascut?

Ca sa nu fac chiar Nimic?

Sa asist la un Nimic plictisitor si nici macar Plictisita sa nu pot fi?

=)

L

F

B

C

♥

Give Me My Thing!

Give Me My Thing!

Give Me My Thing!

.

Cuvinte...

 Mai devreme am fost pe afara... Nu aveam nevoie de nimic in mod special. La intrarea intr-un magazin, am fost atentionata de Dl. Paznic sa imi pun masca. De obicei nu ezit sa port masca pe afara, ca doar e musai, nu? Dar azi am uitat-o in buzunar. Ploua si simteam ca nu pot sa respir cu masca pe fata. Bun.. Domnul a fost amabil, m-am scuzat si m-am intors cautand masca, sa mi-o pun ca sa pot intra in magazin. Pana sa termin, s-a intamplat ceva ce nu am chef sa descriu in amanunt (e vba de o alta muiere interactionand cu 'Paznicul') ~ M-a intristat aceasta intamplare, cometitia pulii... Eu nu am competitie :) ~ Daca nu ma crezi, nu ma intereseaza. Nu spun asta ca sa fiu crezuta. Spun asta pt. ca stiu si pt ca doare (Nimicul dintre noi).

Pa!

Random line

- Totul e bine pe ambele fronturi, sper?

~ Happy Holidays ~

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 !

I wish you... Happy Holidays!

With Love,

From Me

To You

Some weird art

~

♥

 

~

 

♥

Made this gif using photomosh

^^

Ce zi.

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Somebody asked me about closeups of my pussy/ass ~ I said to myself, as I always do: I am not that kind of girl; But... Wait... HE MEANT SOMETHING ELSE. Something that could be put in words yes? No? Incomplete?

What do you mean words are mine?

How did we get to interact in this manner?

Hey! I'm putting words here, so you cant blame me for them.

Please sort out this mystery asap.

I am tired of doing things that I'm not the kind of girl for but I COMPLY over and over, as I look how my whole life crumbles to pieces. I don't wanna do me slowly here, as prefera sa vad totul cum se naruie instant... De dragul vietii. Pe care toti o au pe buzele imaginate (nici macar pe alea nu si le pot imagine bine) ~ Dar aparent nimeni nu mai vrea sa vorbeasca despre ce inseamna cu adevarat.

♥

E un secret

Mistere.

Nu avem ce face.

Sa ma repet nu imi place.

Aceleasi chestii raman valabile. Si dupa expirarea cuvintelor :-<

?

Seamana cu ce-am visat cand am visat locatia respectiva. 

{Am fost in vizita la fosta scoala, devastare si acolo. Luand in calcul ce am invatat anul asta, probabil era o devastare totala cand mergeam acolo zi de zi... Ce dimineti... Ce mirosuri... Ce hlizeli de ??? care nu au fost niciodata prieteni ~ Zamberte false, de dupa cortina.}

HA-HA-HA ~ Come together, alright.

Scorbura.

Degeaba.

|-----------------------------------------------------------------|

:D

Oare el ce vede?

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Something special

Something special, banned on YT.

[initially uploaded 3 parts, same as the ones linked below from my Bitchute, kept getting deleted over and over, I took the full length from my Twitch channel and re-uploaded like this as well, let's see, might or might not get deleted as well. Algos are silly order followers though, a,b,d, don't care ~ I did nothing bad 2 u ♥]

Love is ILLEGAL, in the NOW {You were wrong, Modern Talking, I still loved listening to such music, when I had nothing better to think about}

Highlight on my Twitch channel: https://www.twitch.tv/videos/844663705

Podcast: BREAKING! Here I come. #GoddessAzra #orgasms

Also on Bitchute: https://www.bitchute.com/video/T2p5UW4a0FtL/ 1 ~

https://www.bitchute.com/video/w4w3qeDKBMiv/ 2 ~ 

https://www.bitchute.com/video/Q7JqaziQrkHP/ 3 ~ 

I don't know for sure why this whatevering special more special than others, for me all feel more or less the same, excepting the ones in which Jrks have extra perks because 'space' v, x, and other excuses that mean NOTHING, really [to me]. 

We were supposed to do something awesome in here.

All I see on the walls = Lies.

Hurts like shit.

Like this?

Want more of me?

Can't wait!

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Dear Time, I am not willing to do the same thing one more month, this means, everything {Repeating the same wastes of time in different forms which aren't even that different once you....}, as I already told you. But I write you here too because after all this time, I'm still not sure how you can hear.

👾🔨

  

This is not a contest, honey.

 *

Nothing to win

Nothing to lose

Nothing to do

Nothing to choose.

So why do we do what we do the way we do?

Twee

Chestii

*

Waking up to this?

Priceless!

My wish was fulfilled, Petko sleeps at my feet every night now.

♥

:D

Kitchen window view

A weird clock face of sorts

And another face that came out of nowhere when I was trying to paint something, but avoiding forms (?)

The face of a man who has something to do with what's on the last cover, a face a bit deformed by something that was supposed to feel like a tear but looks like something else.

Thank you for reading!

 

Duty?

Without? Without, why? Without, how, other than using the same thing with the same thing; brainwash, conditioning and triggers. Something is the same; terribly WRONG!.

All the triggers and brainwashes happened WITH, not WITHOUT. They were and still seem to be, about With. [With in MIND]

{Considering current circumstances} I'd gladly take A Without, but I want to choose how and who with, I think it's only fair this way, community. Please, wake up, once and for all. I cannot go on like this forever. I could, obvs, but I feel that it's a terrible mistake, and waste... Of all.

G my inner bitch up! {Quirky over matter}

★

My 'Christmas lights' broke - only the blue shows up, but very dim :(

My cat assisted in a lot of ..... I dont even know what that is.

Today he ate from the leaves of my Japanese Rose

Every day something breaks, malfunctions or gets annoyingly and wrongly utilized into the code of MY DAY.

I am not depressed, but I am very sad, and these 'Toppings' don't help, quite the contrary. Not complaining. But I KNOW it's a lie that such things are necessary so we can still live like we do ~ Piled up in the Monster's whateverthatisthatlookslikeathrashcan.

Every time I am upset

mispleased

annoyed

displeased

~ I emit something. Detrimental to my own health according to certain Laws {I'd love to learn more but we're lost in tangles of blurred lines in the benefit of the few who are, well, Wronng, and manipulate said laws & Other flavors as well ONLY to their advantage (NOT Mainly ~ dear Stream, ONLY. There is a BIG difference.)

You create your own reality, they said.

I don't (When it's about my own correctness & true abilities)

I do (When it's about other's plans schemes and whatever that I have no choice with for there.

Zero.

Dears, 

I enjoy writing here, sometimes more than other times, I just don't like doing this 'on cue' for whatever reason. I genuinely feel that the momentary assist is useless overall. 

And... When I am pleased... That is perhaps even more misinterpreted and improperly used. MAKE MONEY OUTTA MY HOLES. 

Hint: There is no money, and nothing to spend it on, once you see a bit from above.

Once you see they type to make you forget, whatever every day means for you, I don't know. I experienced so much weirdness this year, and I certainly don't want to continue.

:)

}

Without? Without, why? Without, how, other than using the same thing with the same thing; brainwash, conditioning and triggers. Something is the same; terribly WRONG!.
All the triggers and brainwashes happened WITH, not WITHOUT. They were and still seem to be, about With. [With in MIND]
{Considering current circumstances} I'd gladly take A Without, but I want to choose how and who with, I think it's only fair this way, community. Please, wake up, once and for all. I cannot go on like this forever. I could, obvs, but I feel that it's a terrible mistake, and waste... Of all.
G my inner bitch up! {Quirky over matter}