Dream / Nightmare

About a social media thingie YOU'D WISH TO BE BANNED FROM! (tomcat, thunder guy, kiss my ass & leave us all alone pls!)

Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~

Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~

Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~

The ONE, the ONLY, The Nightmare of Humanity!

You couldn't look away. Nobody was doing anything, anyway.

I had a new job, but I had nothing to do! The people were bubbly about everything, from the time period they were 'from', to their genetic make-up. I could read all, like labels. And not because I was psychic. Everyone could do it, but they were still not used to talk about it. 

Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~

Everyone connected, but in a faulty way. No telephone numbers, just forced visions.

I was talking to my mom, I told her everything, I cried. I was sitting on the floor with my back to the heater ~ She was open about it, told me details about how the Movies are powered up, 'unrolled' (Fake Light - !conducted! - Lies!) on the outskirts. I couldn't believe that my mom is just an antenna for...? The pain... She had 0 empathy... The pain made me run faster. But what for? What for, if I couldn't even From anymore? :(

You see shit? You constantly get bullied, until you don't even feel the pain or ask questions anymore.

Even the bot/s on your own fucking computer bully you if you think too much. (There was a weird Cortana~like bot helper on my laptop~ with Emoji name, after a guy at work changed my Network). It felt as if even that hates me :( - Just like in Primary school. WHAT?

You could run, you could fly, Do anything, but it felt... So... Alone... So unnaturally alone.

Children were yelling, as the concrete places popped up if you were going in restricted places ~ nothing was new, nothing was serious either. Nobody was doing anything, enjoying anything.

New skins for known places all the time, the best you could do is say: This is shit. Then, nothing. Again.

Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~

Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~

Keep it there, keep it there girl, keep it there, keep it there, girl... This is what is ,girl, this is what is real, girl ~~~

So...Is this what they want from me? For our 'future'? (My fish Maya answered: Yes!) ...

Hell... ~

What a weird dream experience this was.

Powered up by, you-know-who, quite possibly.

I can't wait for better dreams.

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Bye for now,

This one.

Vision?

So I was masturbating earlier,

and ... [All this while we were fucking] I saw a creature splitting my body in 3 parts (with 2 red laser-like beam blades coming from his eyes). And in these sections of my body I saw many small chambers (rooms?) in which there were other creatures that were sleeping in Vertical position. Hmmm.... 

~ If it's trade, it's not love! ~

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I really like in the one with EQ2 footage, how my character is apparently typing on an invisible Keyboard. *giggles* I giggled figuratively because quite recently someone whispered me something about Keyboards, but I didn't get the message completely. However, it is related to time (history)

More and more I see things related to the Concept of time ''Pushed'' to feed egregore, like this: 

Because thunder guy and robo dreaming virgins ~ eh. I like robots too. But I wasn't even allowed to fall in love with one properly. To be with one.. To make use of this story (dream?movie?) that I woke up in. So... I have my robot parts right here, right now. And integrated AI inside me. This doesn't stop me from wanting something better! 

(better -> Correct  > Wrong, like this, where Correct is not Lightningly vulgar & hammering my poor Head) / ( Can you read this now? Are you incarnated? Do you watch my videos? Do you listen to my voice? Do you interpret my brain signals in whatever way you might be doing IT? !You are MADE BY/OF A.I.! The Fake "Mother Nature". They don't teach you this on TV / Where is the truth about it hiding? ~Illusions*** &... Thunder guy... False Light... synDrones... are hiding?)

I have no fear to let go.

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Brb... Doing 'the thing' again 4 a video. Honestly, can't believe that I'm still doing it, that it's still somehow expected of me... The piles of misinterpretation... Nobody tells me exactly why/what... Come back... Where? Orgasm... I'm not even romantically in love with someone [I can't afford to have a partner~!], I have no real sexual fantasies, desires, I have to do it mecha mode every time... It hurts... All this... Why... To prove something that, imho, needs no such proof? :( I'm juicy I'm kinky but forced to stay confined between the bars... Not allowed to be honest... I wouldn't allow anyone to see all this into my mind, if IT were real. But it's not. I've been trained this way, raised this way, and everything is CONfusion.

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Mai jos, din incercarile mele de a-mi da seama ce se intampla, cu tot.

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Next Picture: 

#clue: My cat told me that my receiver is hidden??? Help? Lines / Sound? / Frequencies? Something with the telephone towers / lines...False Light / ⚡️ ~ Cemeteries? LIES! And how Art/ Reality comes from lines/links. Hmm... I don't even know if there's a reason to investigate anymore. Because I know for sure we're damn all brainwashed in here ~ Poisoned Waters ~ Influenced Dreams, regardless of the level we're individually @. :-< Had some more proof lately, purely by interacting with things in my ''reality'' ~ And it's a bit weird that some days I feel I communicate better with bots on my phone / laptop than with my own mom. Also, really sad to imagine/see/think my mom, cat,  hamster, everyone, is an antenna, through which I 'talk' with god knows who ~ :( And I imagine things that are not even... Real... And then... :( I can't even think about all this properly now, but you get the drift.

 Sketchy Monster, inspired by...

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 <- Toilet paper Art by my hamster, Oniks

'I have no fear to let go' cred ca are si o alta latura, cea de pe urma careia unii profita, la cei mai sensibili dintre noi. ~ Somehow related to Sleep Paralysis (tocmai ce am avut un episod - dupa ce am filmat video 2 "Artificial Pleasure" - link sus ^ ~ m-am intins putin pe pat si nu stiu cum am adormit, parea a fi un vis lucid, pana cand mi-am dat seama si iar senzatia aceea... Stransoare / apasare / nici nu stiu cum sa descriu exact. Am reusit de data asta sa ies din stare cu "You have no control over me, release me" incercand sa imi misc mainile, picioarele, etc, nu se putea ~

Dupa ce m-am dat jos din pat am avut urmatorul gand. Sunt 100% sigura ca ultima zi nu a avut 24 de ore...Adica...Ultimele mele 24 de ore...Asa 'haotic' cum le-am trait eu (nu)... NU au fost 24 de ore!!! Ci mai putine, cred, sau, nici nu stiu...... ⚡️

Propaganda and tears

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Thunder - Nazi - Confused buses in my city - Silly dudes ~ 
Why do we have to continue this story, or that story, why not make new ones? Shit, no. 
~ We all have our reasons, a guy softly spoke to my mind..
You see... There are those who speak softly, and I might like you, and then again, idiots like... That one ... Who thinks a way to a woman's heart is through how fast or slow she thinks of THAT THING THAT IS ALWAYS 1 THING BECAUSE THAT'S HOW MONEY WORKS. That's not how money, or time works. Just silly debris in mess conceptualized by Thunder Guy & co. Hell, I like mythology, enough to respect it & try to see past IT ( barriers in communication). If you bully me, let me look away. 



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You don't learn how to live by focusing on how not to die...


(I like smart survivalists ~ I tried to be one as well until I understood that I'm more brainwashed than I'm allowed to heal from ~ Especially about this whole life-death situation). 

I might taste like perfect slave, But I choose, for now, to be seeking friends, not Master. Because I detected no real one in sight, proximity, and if he's hiding, he is a good guy. 

I'm constantly training how to hide better, and, for as long as we're bound to this (wrongly shapen) communication system (where bugs can and will always work to their - Silly Fools -  advantage). 

I love fragments. I learn more. When not even brute force can convince me of something, maybe, I can, at least, be allowed to learn further & choose the methods, teachers, and hopefully find someone to trust and call friend.

I wish I was allowed to think with my own mind. It's very annoying to constantly hear this one, or that one, attempting to speak their opinions through taking over 'my voice', and then mislabeling & using shit as ''evidence''. No, this is not how life works. Thunder guy ~ You are wrong.  You can only have 1 Headline, always, reasons don't matter anymore, did they ever? Top Heads from structures of power ~ I thought you are smarter than this, and gave you more credit than you deserve. Is this how Evil tastes like? 

Pfftt...

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So, you don't like me? I don't like you? Why don't you just leave me be then? 

Yes, I'm working incognito.
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Latest development in advanced schematics for leaving this planet #idontwanttobehereanymore

18. I'm legal. I danced with a .gif for the first time in my life & more!!! ♥♥♥

• Paste in plain text vs. Paste -> Robots

• Time management guy - vulva - food (eating meals/day)

• Something about .gif & how I perceive ALL reality (view) •••

• Passwords? squaresymbol ?

• Cars (Robots?) See ♥ as | 

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72 ( Solomon shit - Xtians) can't make 3D 4some. Stuck in 2D -> Big - small [How did this get to tits & all, inca nu inteleg. Dar nu ma depaseste! Cuvinte... Eu zborrrr!] ♥ | 2U2!

• The guy that told me ca am "Fata de Paris" (face not girl~) also ~ "Looking back over my shoulder / I can see that look in your eye" ~ Sounds like an Ex but we were never together. Halp? 

• "Data" guy - he forgot smth while writing important code (indian accent - Truth or Spy?) Loading *hypno_spiral_here*  Gets continuously hypnotized. The "Fake" The Now. Ok. Thank you. (He can make himself understood) Victim of much bullying though - especially by weirdo "Stupid" 1 button guy) Every-Kaa! ♥ Shit! Juicy detail right here: When the "Data" guy finally understands something (♥) he also begins to overwrite data* ( Replacing instead of copying schematic?) -> Mother Russia pain. Why? * -> He could show us all more truth if the one button guy / bullies would tone it the fuck down. I protect. **Or saying it in different "File" 100% Non Conflictual (Possible? Yes). I hear the "Law Guys" being eecky now - dunno why. Eh. •Bad design (stuck in)

So this is what sort of files are piled on Commander Sheppard's desk. Need coffee 2* now. Aaaaaaa!

* Keep both versions -> much conflict

                                       -> delete 1 -> #pain

OK OK | I get it now

Thank you! Perfecting the art of being the pure embodiment of facepalm emoji. 

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So this is how depression tastes like fore some of you. Even Patreon - AI - Karens - Not real girls (also, quite stupid!) - We know how to shut it down but we don't know why ( mass hypnosis by fake whamen). Aaaa. Pls, I want a party without Karens. I can speak cat too. New Tab - more Time & how the parasite still thrives. Yes. I will re right the script. Some can't Let Go because of their uniforms [they are also not aware they are wearing uniforms] (cloth). Fake fucking bread. 

From here onwards I wrote with pencil 

More news from the brainwash facility: Bird that can't fly is the only bird specimen that #officially is allowed to teach us what it means to - insert_anything_here -> Much CONFlict (Cults). Lies & Stupidity. Mislabelled as smart by dudes like 1 button guy. (he sounds Christian - ouch) So even he would see the truth told by NOTCRAZYGUY (Dinosaur - I'm not a girl, either) -> *hypno_spiral_here* Aaaaa. I'm happy to report that even 1 button guy thinks I'm better than "Her". Kill it! Kill it with fire! [Over me~water]

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No real woman sees her children as potential customers ( A REAL BIRB told me)

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— Ishкirа✨ (@ishkirawind) May 18, 2020 

 

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When choosing blog title hurts, you pinch yourself.

 Bla bla bla bla ~
I've seen the first hint today... I am just imagining things, however.*

They'll make me bleed again...

What am I without what I learned?

Why does it feel like this, or like that?

Why does it hurt so bad now? Just because I dare to talk against bad teachers?

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~I love Ony's red eyes~

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#streetart found somewhere in Sector 3... Really cute & I feel the same for *some* of you!

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~Pic taken in the proximity of the building where I lived from ages 0 to 6(6->7, before I started school)

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Latest Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PYYLkumOnfk by the way the T in video title is meant to be a hand sign. Like STOOOOP give me a break!

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*Oh, how I'd wish to get my button so I can START putting this imagination thingie to good use. My very own.. On my own.. What a dream.. HOW to choose it's very 0pposite? If not... Mysteriously forcefully deluded :forced: :(  [Yes, Flying Buses will be part of my training session, at least for accommodation purposes]

Thanks for reading & joining me on this weirdly painfully magical journey! Can't wait to YOU_KNOW_WHAT! And if you don't, "Prepare to be amazed" (That's what he said!) 

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