10 Jan 2021

thought

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Legs and feet

Looking @...

De ieri.

Writing here mainly cause if I don't write I 'get' pain is very wrong. Sometimes, honestly, I feel like 'brewing up' a blog article for a while before posting it. However, if I don't post daily (or almost daily) here, I GET PAIN. and most if not all MY good thoughts & intentions (for concocting & posting blog articles(!)) are WASTED. [Also, I get similar shit in other areas of my life too, he-he-he].
This is not normal or right & proves no point about me & or Evolveness when it comes to mind and consciousness. Really. I don't care you don't believe me.

Take care and if you have more comments on this topic please let me know.
Do... because....if not.....


 

9 Jan 2021

Dirty Granny Tails


Time to throw away your burden
to ride the broom and never
look back to your previous life
it's time to reap the roots of past

Go fly above your weakness
the sky above is endless
look below this world is small
could not contain your godly soul

Trembling of my heart
rippling of my dream
distance takes apart
all that I have been

Lost in skies of velvet
lovelier than ever
counting on myself alone

Never break always trust your inner sense
wonders wait you on your road
look ahead miracles are everywhere
life will take you by the hand
 


~

Thanks for recommending me this song, whoever you were :) I still remember your name, messenger (Ym) id, but to what avail 👀. You shocked me when you told me that thing with the T-shirt, you know, the one you throw behind the sofa.


Take good care of yerselfez.


7 Jan 2021

a bit busy

...
Weird days and I'm busy with moving back to S4..
[...]
Last sleep paralysis experience.
I saw an old woman, from the back, on the hallway here... She couldn't hear me, or she was ignoring me. I felt I was suffocating. When I reached to grab her by the shoulder, until she turned, I "woke up" with the strange sleep paralysis state, and started saying again, in my mind: You have no power over me, you have no control over me, then I started laughing (as if a friendly being was responsible for this weird experience, and I was like: Oh, what am I even saying in here, we're way past this stage!), my right breast (noticeably bigger than how it looks in real life) was twitching, as if: Aha, sure. So I was not afraid, more like, a prank. But I was bothered by the physical sensations. Like a thousand needles sensations running through all my muscles at the same time & the inability to move.

...

Something strange about waking up / combobulating the reality around me when I wake up, and the 'noise' which I keep hearing that it's OH SO NECESSARY, however, I know for sure that that is not true.

~




So I can, so I can ~ 



Ce e acolo?

Take care.



5 Jan 2021

Title

I will miss this neighborhood from time to time... I took this picture today, on my way back, wondering why in some days that seem 'key moments' for something, I see lots of pigeons. I got some hints about these birds, but I don't know what to believe anymore. It was a weird day. ~

https://anchor.fm/ishkira-wind/episodes/CItesc-din-cartile-de-la-biblioteca-si-din-Biblie-eojf6a

Take care! 💋

👾

:(

 Why?

Someone told me some things about some 'workers' today. I didn't really understand (fully), I don't want to judge. It's not what it appears to be at first sight [for me], but then again, I wrote about this before. Workers to make up the noise ~around~ me, so... We can... Go on... Go... On... How...? Nobody is happy.


Thank you



Lots of weirdness ~ 

Water that boils slower, and also cools down slower, and other details..(where I'm about to move back)..

Pare ca a trecut mai putin timp, de ce? 


Vreau sa aleg cu cine stau de vorba inainte de somn.





So I can...


     

I wear my sunglasses at night
So I can, so I can
Watch you weave
Then breathe your story lines
And I wear my sunglasses at night
So I can, so I can
Keep track of the visions in my eyes.








💋






4 Jan 2021

5 orgasms


A weird whatevering session, not playful, and most of it was not enjoyable.
5 orgasms.
Triggers & a little bit of what I like from time to time..

Don't know what to think anymore... Why am I doing this?

Access denied.
For what?