4 Aug 2020

Thoughts...



I don't need more things to think about or things to think about again and again while I masturbate , I don't like doing it. The more I do it the more far I get from my realness (observed results during months of struggle with fitting in shit like this in my Hours of life).


I don't know what else to say, I feel I said it all by now, clear, for all. I am well aware of the takeovers and deleted parts of sparks that show good paths, and to that there's nothing that I can do or that I would ever be able to do (Restrictions).





2 Aug 2020

Necklace

Not sure if the embed code works or not..Hmm...

Anyway:

Current necklace setup: 


♥ Polymer clay Goddess figurine handmade by Me (with Sunstones)

♥ Seashell from Constanta, Black Sea, from my trip back in Sept 2019

♥ Prehnite (tumbled) pendant ~ Got this as a replacement because I broke my Rose Quartz Merkaba shaped pendant  :(

I've always been drawn to this stone, Prehnite (Not as strongly as to Chrisoprase, but in a similar way) and this  pendant is the first specimen I purchased. Now thinking of Blue Chalcedony & how I haven't put my paw on any until now though it's one of my absolute favorites. 

"The name chalcedony comes from the Latin chalcedonius (alternatively spelled calchedonius). The name appears in Pliny the Elder’s Naturalis Historia as a term for a translucid kind of Jaspis. The name is probably derived from the town Chalcedon in Asia Minor. The Greek word khalkedon (χαλκηδών) also appears in the Book of Revelation (Apc 21,19). It is a hapax legomenon found nowhere else, so it is hard to tell whether the precious gem mentioned in the Bible is the same mineral known by this name today." ~ from: https://www.geologypage.com/2019/03/what-is-the-difference-between-agate-jasper-and-chalcedony.html






On my last trip to the crystal shop I got: Aquamarine, 3 x Amethyst, tumbled Rose Quartz, Laser Quartz Point, Prehnite pendant, tumbled Botswana Agate. I always liked stones and I have a special relationship with em, different than the regular commercial views, oh well. 


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30 Jul 2020

It's almost as if...

...What do you expect me to say

    ABout what I see...

I don't like the 'blame game', so... Linguistyx... Found myself in the Lion's den... Again? Hey! I'm a Leo myself ;) 

~~~ Dispeller of illusions .:Not allowed:. (Yet) • [Time is fake] 

...words? Sometimes there just aren't any available to truly express what needs to be expressed.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Pidges! 

Talk to the ...

Why did I see this? [Wall]

ROmanian weirdness.

Optimal way of... Deceiving everybody? [I don't want food with bugs, however, I think these 👾 are cute. So easy to misunderstand Me. 


Yeux sans visage...
Voyage, voyage ♥


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My <EGO> is not sick, naturally. If only, if only...

Discretion? But, 

Waiting in line.

Did you?




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Sunset before I took the tram :)

Linguistyx @ play 

Pinky hug?

Moon & Lamp


Nois! Nais or noise? *Meow*



I remember those walls...


Directia servicii.


~ Thanks.

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I still don't understand why certain things are so trendy across Generations that should Evolve. ( I do not believe in Evil things even if I see them "@play" ~ No. It's almost as if, they don't know how to play.) ~

Mind the... ? 

Din statia lui 14.

Thank you for the Whisper. I truly appreciate!

Din tramvai.

De ce e de 2 ori?





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Keywords and more..

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Odd looking grass~ 

More keywords. (&more)

Hmmmm....

I went to McDonald's, felt clueless most of the time. (Because of the Humans vs. Non-Humans thing)


I still don't know how to look at some information and deal with my Reality as if Nothing happened.
*sigh* I mean all the misunderstandings regarding religious things & well... Things themselves. And the things which are not things but are treated as things and it's very painful.
I do not believe in spiritual warfare ~ (Why Force me to believe it's Real?!) It is but a dream. A NIGHTMARE. How many lives? What? Numbers? So everything I do really is in vain? (No one really caught me / I do not break, Nothing will ever make me 'break' ~ I need a break.) ~  Not even Once.  Restul e poveste ~ *sigh*

Cause baby if you have eyes like mine, you can hear in the dark.

I liked this. [I still don't understand how things like these have anything to do with 'sex' whatsoever].
Make make make
More more more
Ok.
I'm still confused.
Food?


jnfingignifowiejfwoeifj.

Stadionul National ~ era multa lume pe acolo (lume as in ~ people)

*sigh*

*siiiigh*

Cine, ce, cand, unde?
Cum adica... Am uitat la ce ma uitam in timp ce unii ma fortau sa nu-i uit pe altii. Nu imi place sa ma uit la ei.








Mr. Maior, linii din umbre.



♥♥
U


Drapelul national.

Aer = Air


Why does this make me smile?

Nails in thick wood

"School" 

Sad because of the same thing with the same thing..

I got close. *Snap*

Do I really wanna know what this means?


counting lines and versions.

Profanity ( \Fake politeness   Mockery/) is not how u make more space, punct.

OF

29.07.2020 Weird dream last night... I was holding my grown up son in my arms, he was still dressed as a baby (infasat); and various aspects in the dream tried to make me "see" him as a lover (iubit) but I had a Knowing (inner) that that's my




Upsidedown.


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