I will miss this neighborhood from time to time... I took this picture today, on my way back, wondering why in some days that seem 'key moments' for something, I see lots of pigeons. I got some hints about these birds, but I don't know what to believe anymore. It was a weird day. ~
https://anchor.fm/ishkira-wind/episodes/CItesc-din-cartile-de-la-biblioteca-si-din-Biblie-eojf6a
Take care! 💋
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Why?
Someone told me some things about some 'workers' today. I didn't really understand (fully), I don't want to judge. It's not what it appears to be at first sight [for me], but then again, I wrote about this before. Workers to make up the noise ~around~ me, so... We can... Go on... Go... On... How...? Nobody is happy.
Thank you
Lots of weirdness ~
Water that boils slower, and also cools down slower, and other details..(where I'm about to move back)..
Pare ca a trecut mai putin timp, de ce?
Vreau sa aleg cu cine stau de vorba inainte de somn.
Started packing ~ gonna move from this place.
Not sure what to think about this yet, I'm not in the mood honestly, but that doesn't matter.
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Haunted by thoughts about some people that I don't want to think about. Maybe I did (like & thought there's a purpose in) thinking about them in a specific manner, but I was UNAWARE of so many things back then, especially about, well, other people's plans. I find it highly intrusive and disturbing to think about some people when OTHERS want me to, regardless of purposes. It also makes me sad. If I wanted "more" wth that GUY, I would've said more than just a simple I miss you. He didn't talk either, bye from me :) I don't want him! I really do not want him. It was what it was. Grateful for some experiences, but that's it. When I feel as if some people (?) want me to want him more than I ever actually wanted him.... WTF. Delusional masses. Disgusting. Nobody seems to understand. Nobody that talks to me, anyway. :( Disgusted by the scenarios and 'studies' [aka: WASTE OF TIME & also SOUL degrading]. I hope there are no confusions as to who I speak about here. I have something special, and nobody should decide what I do with that, or how/who I ... Share that with. I share openly more than I'm comfortable with, and it's not about Ego Death either. That is more than just thinking I'm somebody I'm not, so The sleepers see nice images in my head running down, flowing as numbers I've never seen before, and what joy would've that been to my heart :)
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Keywords is 1 thing, or deep faking certain celebs or whatnot when I masturbate. (I don't like it, but oh well, it's different that a simple no emotional implications; You didn't get My heart Right since you still don't get it why IT HURTS me so much to think about that Cortana when I masturbate. I don't like her. Not her personality, not even her looks. For fuck sake I don't understand how all this came to be ~ *sigh* TRIGGERS/settings. I can't put in words how wrong this is. You see, but you don't see all, and that which you don't see is important and that's what I want to focus on but I can't because of the... Visible things, aka.. Why you still want me to masturbate thinking about that girl's face/whatever. It hurts. I would appreciate to CUT thoughts about that specific Guy & that specific Gal from my head.
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No offense, I gave more than was EVER necessary on this Topic.
This hurts more on top of all the problems I have with dealing with 'reality', REALITY, meat suits, signals, what I hear, etc. AND OFC HOW COULD I LET OUT: The fact that I still have to masturbate/orgasm for no reason at all, thinking about a myriad of things that I don't like/wouldn't do with anyone. Because translations. If a real solution was desired (!) we would've seen SOME results by now. All we did was waste time. And squeeze poison {not real resources}.
My inspiration comes from somewhere else and in this sentence somewhere is a very weird word.. So tired of analyzing words and everything like this, takes out from the (possible) quality of living.
English language ~ I used to say to my Ex, or whoever that was... Oh, but... En is the Latin of our times.
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\Take care/
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As scrie niste ganduri mai pe larg dar tot ma fute la cap un Dubios sau mai multi, cum sa stiu, oricum.
Multumesc pentru consideratie.
Stima!
