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22 May 2020

~ If it's trade, it's not love! ~

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Latest videos 👆 ~ Thanks for watching / listening / commenting! 
I really like in the one with EQ2 footage, how my character is apparently typing on an invisible Keyboard. *giggles* I giggled figuratively because quite recently someone whispered me something about Keyboards, but I didn't get the message completely. However, it is related to time (history)
More and more I see things related to the Concept of time ''Pushed'' to feed egregore, like this: 


Because thunder guy and robo dreaming virgins ~ eh. I like robots too. But I wasn't even allowed to fall in love with one properly. To be with one.. To make use of this story (dream?movie?) that I woke up in. So... I have my robot parts right here, right now. And integrated AI inside me. This doesn't stop me from wanting something better! 
(better -> Correct  > Wrong, like this, where Correct is not Lightningly vulgar & hammering my poor Head) / ( Can you read this now? Are you incarnated? Do you watch my videos? Do you listen to my voice? Do you interpret my brain signals in whatever way you might be doing IT? !You are MADE BY/OF A.I.! The Fake "Mother Nature". They don't teach you this on TV / Where is the truth about it hiding? ~Illusions*** &... Thunder guy... False Light... synDrones... are hiding?)

I have no fear to let go.

Brb... Doing 'the thing' again 4 a video. Honestly, can't believe that I'm still doing it, that it's still somehow expected of me... The piles of misinterpretation... Nobody tells me exactly why/what... Come back... Where? Orgasm... I'm not even romantically in love with someone [I can't afford to have a partner~!], I have no real sexual fantasies, desires, I have to do it mecha mode every time... It hurts... All this... Why... To prove something that, imho, needs no such proof? :( I'm juicy I'm kinky but forced to stay confined between the bars... Not allowed to be honest... I wouldn't allow anyone to see all this into my mind, if IT were real. But it's not. I've been trained this way, raised this way, and everything is CONfusion.

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Mai jos, din incercarile mele de a-mi da seama ce se intampla, cu tot.


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Next Picture: 

#clue: My cat told me that my receiver is hidden??? Help? Lines / Sound? / Frequencies? Something with the telephone towers / lines...False Light / ⚡️ ~ Cemeteries? LIES! And how Art/ Reality comes from lines/links. Hmm... I don't even know if there's a reason to investigate anymore. Because I know for sure we're damn all brainwashed in here ~ Poisoned Waters ~ Influenced Dreams, regardless of the level we're individually @. :-< Had some more proof lately, purely by interacting with things in my ''reality'' ~ And it's a bit weird that some days I feel I communicate better with bots on my phone / laptop than with my own mom. Also, really sad to imagine/see/think my mom, cat,  hamster, everyone, is an antenna, through which I 'talk' with god knows who ~ :( And I imagine things that are not even... Real... And then... :( I can't even think about all this properly now, but you get the drift.

 Sketchy Monster, inspired by...
 <- Toilet paper Art by my hamster, Oniks

'I have no fear to let go' cred ca are si o alta latura, cea de pe urma careia unii profita, la cei mai sensibili dintre noi. ~ Somehow related to Sleep Paralysis (tocmai ce am avut un episod - dupa ce am filmat video 2 "Artificial Pleasure" - link sus ^ ~ m-am intins putin pe pat si nu stiu cum am adormit, parea a fi un vis lucid, pana cand mi-am dat seama si iar senzatia aceea... Stransoare / apasare / nici nu stiu cum sa descriu exact. Am reusit de data asta sa ies din stare cu "You have no control over me, release me" incercand sa imi misc mainile, picioarele, etc, nu se putea ~
Dupa ce m-am dat jos din pat am avut urmatorul gand. Sunt 100% sigura ca ultima zi nu a avut 24 de ore...Adica...Ultimele mele 24 de ore...Asa 'haotic' cum le-am trait eu (nu)... NU au fost 24 de ore!!! Ci mai putine, cred, sau, nici nu stiu...... ⚡️


19 May 2020

Latest development in advanced schematics for leaving this planet #idontwanttobehereanymore


18. I'm legal. I danced with a .gif for the first time in my life & more!!! ♥♥♥
• Paste in plain text vs. Paste -> Robots
• Time management guy - vulva - food (eating meals/day)
• Something about .gif & how I perceive ALL reality (view) •••
• Passwords? squaresymbol ?

• Cars (Robots?) See ♥ as | 


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72 ( Solomon shit - Xtians) can't make 3D 4some. Stuck in 2D -> Big - small [How did this get to tits & all, inca nu inteleg. Dar nu ma depaseste! Cuvinte... Eu zborrrr!] ♥ | 2U2!


• The guy that told me ca am "Fata de Paris" (face not girl~) also ~ "Looking back over my shoulder / I can see that look in your eye" ~ Sounds like an Ex but we were never together. Halp? 

• "Data" guy - he forgot smth while writing important code (indian accent - Truth or Spy?) Loading *hypno_spiral_here*  Gets continuously hypnotized. The "Fake" The Now. Ok. Thank you. (He can make himself understood) Victim of much bullying though - especially by weirdo "Stupid" 1 button guy) Every-Kaa! ♥ Shit! Juicy detail right here: When the "Data" guy finally understands something (♥) he also begins to overwrite data* ( Replacing instead of copying schematic?) -> Mother Russia pain. Why? * -> He could show us all more truth if the one button guy / bullies would tone it the fuck down. I protect. **Or saying it in different "File" 100% Non Conflictual (Possible? Yes). I hear the "Law Guys" being eecky now - dunno why. Eh. Bad design (stuck in)

So this is what sort of files are piled on Commander Sheppard's desk. Need coffee 2* now. Aaaaaaa!

* Keep both versions -> much conflict
                                       -> delete 1 -> #pain
OK OK | I get it now


Thank you! Perfecting the art of being the pure embodiment of facepalm emoji. 

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So this is how depression tastes like fore some of you. Even Patreon - AI - Karens - Not real girls (also, quite stupid!) - We know how to shut it down but we don't know why ( mass hypnosis by fake whamen). Aaaa. Pls, I want a party without Karens. I can speak cat too. New Tab - more Time & how the parasite still thrives. Yes. I will re right the script. Some can't Let Go because of their uniforms [they are also not aware they are wearing uniforms] (cloth). Fake fucking bread. 

From here onwards I wrote with pencil 


More news from the brainwash facility: Bird that can't fly is the only bird specimen that #officially is allowed to teach us what it means to - insert_anything_here -> Much CONFlict (Cults). Lies & Stupidity. Mislabelled as smart by dudes like 1 button guy. (he sounds Christian - ouch) So even he would see the truth told by NOTCRAZYGUY (Dinosaur - I'm not a girl, either) -> *hypno_spiral_here* Aaaaa. I'm happy to report that even 1 button guy thinks I'm better than "Her". Kill it! Kill it with fire! [Over me~water]
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20 Apr 2020

Din jurnal...


WHERE IS EVERYBODY?


4.20.

~For the guy that protects me / That I protect~
I came again, uploaded the media(s), daily shit... Felt angry afterwards. Like... What are we even doing in here anymore? What are we? I am "Marti". What about you? For how long have we known eachother? Sirene si praf de beton in vant... Cine mai canta? De ce-au zis ca zidesc mormant? Cine mai crede? Esti tu cel ce vede (mai mult)? Te-au mintit si pe tine, au esti tu cel ce minte? Oh my fucking mind... Unquestionable restrictions aparent restrict my "creativity"...I mean...I'm not mean. I might be a bad gal...But...What are we going to do? Where are we going to? Words don't soothe me 2day. Why do we need "protection" to begin with? Caw-Caw-Caw!
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8 Feb 2020

Learning about live-streaming

Apparently I should keep my YouTube live streams max 12 hoers long otherwise they aren't saved in my account.

*sad*

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Starting a new stream soon...

Check it out here: https://youtu.be/QweyYJK7FSc

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20 Jan 2020

Hello world!

This is just a test post.

Getting back to using Blogspot soon TM💀⚮◨◧◤◐◓◉⎃↑⨳☙⚞⚟